Title: DevotionAuthor:
amamaeGenre: AngstRating: PG-13Pairing: YabuhikanooHe was peeking through the window of my class which welcomed by a bright smile of mine. Soon my smile was disappearing as I examined his looks. He was all sweaty with dusty shirt and untied shoes.
"Are you alright?" I asked. "No problem. I heard you need your notes back, so I rushed here. It's hot outside. Glad you're here." He talked while trying to take the notes from his bag.
I remained silent. I was about to open my mouth when he abrubtly took his leave with short goodbye.
Yabu. I think I grow to love him more. It's not either by his good looking or his popularity. I do love him that's all. His tender heart has been well known, I know. His high grade will not be qustioned anymore, I'm aware. But on top of that, he always listen to me, every problem, story, and even rants. I only want him to know that he's loved the way he is, sincerely.
I go overboard thinking that my feeling just right. My attention to him seems unnecessary and make him feel uneasy.
"Sure doing fine, huh?"
"Why?"
"You looks awful"
"When? Did you see me?"
"Well, yesterday? not sure either."
"Nothing happened. Ah, I see. It was truly the weather, you'd probably looks awful as well if you're going outside."
"Good, then."
I'm blinded by my own feeling. I knew just now, he never put any certain concern while I'm worrying him. He never told me his true feeling in exchange of listening to my talk. That's because he has put those effort on someone else.
"Did you caught cold, Hikaru? I saw you today. And you were so pale." That's the text he sent to my best friend.
Someone he's fully aware to be my best friend. It was when I worried him, he's worrying someone else. How come I didn't notice his expression. A glimpse of sad smile he gave me sometimes, it bears the burden of his true feeling.
I do not hesitate about anything as much as I hesitate about seizing the light of my precious sun: he hates my feeling and I hate hurting him.